Recently two blogging friends have written about being invisible and not liking to be the center of attention. This is so me! I love wearing clothes that I love and some of them aren't "fashionable" and a bit eclectic... which causes me to stand out. I'm trying to get more comfortable in my own skin so I've been forcing myself to wear them in public and it hasn't been too bad. I get compliments on my PPP clothes that I wear. I just say thanks and move on. But I must say that I prefer to be invisible. But I do love sharing what Shauna of Poor Pitiful Pearl creates!
I struggle with being noticed though. I want to reach out to people, but being around people I don't know is stressful for me and drains my energy fast... I want to be friendly and social but I also want to be invisible and watch...I want to be my authentic self but I don't want to stand out or be the center of attention... I want to be liked but I want to be left alone too... I don't want to be left out but don't want to be included in everything either...I like observing and the freedom that being invisible brings but I also want to be a part of something.
I'm aware that there are several books out there now about how to live as an introvert in this very social world. I haven't read them yet, but they are on my wish list. I've always thought I could fake my way since that's what the world expects. It has only been in the last few years that I've come to recognize that God made me this way for a reason. I don't want to be something I'm not, but I also don't want to use it as an excuse. So I definitely believe there's a balance. That balance is what I'm seeking!