We are back on the road now... presently in Myrtle Beach! Beaches and the ocean are my favorite places to be and it is really nice here. We are within walking distance to the beach so I can walk out there any time I want. The weather has been sunny... a bit cool but still pleasant. And while I'm enjoying our time near the ocean... things just still don't feel "right".
One thing God did reveal to both of us while we were stranded in a place where we knew no one, were without the comforts of home and several days lacking transportation, was that we miss "home". And "home" being Texas with our family, a few friends, familiarity, friendly people in general, big open spaces, good Mexican food and BBQ. For me, it has been the realization that I'm weary of "chasing life" and am ready to build one in a place called home. I thought I had a gypsy spirit, but being stranded has made me realize that that is just a small part of me. The bigger part wants to build a life in a community making and keeping friends that aren't just virtual friends. I love my online friendships... I really do. But nothing replaces "face time". The real face time and not on an Iphone! =)
We still have not decided what is our immediate future. We are trusting that God has a plan and we are trying to follow our hearts. Our hearts are telling us to take some time away from Wilmington and feeling forgotten and helpless. Leaving the hotel and moving back into our rig helped a little with that. But it's more.
It goes back to what we determined we were both missing with this lifestyle. True connections that are consistent... being involved in a community, in something bigger than ourselves. We can continue to try and find that on this adventure or we can build it in a community that we already call home.
Enough thoughtful thoughts... we've had more heart talks in the past 21 days than we've had in 25 years of marriage! Kinda...
Kinda...maybe...really. As long as we are together to the end.
ReplyDeleteI used to think I'd love to fulltime, but have learned that I need a home, too. It's so much fun to go, but it is oh so wonderful to come back home.
ReplyDeleteAll the best to you!
Ahhhh, your travel posts will be missed should you decide to go back to sticks & bricks, but your happiness (and fulfillment) is what ultimately matters. You two are awesome. Heartfelt best wishes-no matter what you decide.
ReplyDeleteIt is weird how when you blog about an adventure, you (or at least David and I) end up feeling obligated to fulfill our readers' virtual adventure... so it's hard to truly follow our hearts when we've shared our adventure "at large"...
DeleteSo understand your thoughts Teri. Being on the road is hard enough without problems - each time we have challenges I (we) question this way of living also. I guess having a home but still being able to travel is the ideal.
ReplyDeleteI do agree having a home and being able to travel is ideal... just that most people cannot afford both of those! Which is why we sold everything in the first place!
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ReplyDeleteAlthough it kind of makes me sad to know you guys may not be out there with us on the road, I feel so fortunate that we were able to meet you both in person and share some time, albeit short.
ReplyDeleteJerry and I wish you both the very best, wherever you live, in whatever type of home you choose! Even if you come off the road, I hope you will still check in with our blog and see what we are doing :).
We will continue to follow your adventure! And when you come to the Austin area, we'd love to see you again!
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